Yesterday I came home from Tap and had two products to eat. I didn't want to eat them. I wasn't hungry and the idea of another shake and soup is beginning to turn my stomach. I have acclimated to the 960 calories, and because I can't eat anything but product I don't think about food that much. The times I think about it is when I am trying to figure out what I am going to eat off product. But this is an important observation to make. When you know you can only eat ... you just don't think about what to eat, or even have cravings.
But I know if I had come home from Tap and not on product I would be in the fridge looking for something to eat. I worked hard yesterday, Tap, training and swimming I exercised at least all the calories I ate for the day, and I probably should have been hungry, but I was not hungry enough to want product. But I don't know what I would want if I wasn't eating product.
I know at the first of the blog I was craving steak, but I am not craving anything now. Cooking at Easter didn't kick up any cravings, even when people said the food was good. I don't think I am visceral about food, I am beginning to think it is all in my head, that my body if left without conscious thought would not be heavy.
If only I can carryover this to eating normal food. I have been saying forever that I need a regimented diet. I need to know what I can eat. No grazing. I, with TH, am going to do a meal delivery, and the last time I did it it went well for about 8 months, then I just couldn't handle the food anymore. This time we are going to do it differently, we are starting out 5 days and figuring two days on our own. Eventually we will hopefully be eating all on our own and not reverting back.
Yes two weeks, then four weeks then eek Europe.
But I know if I had come home from Tap and not on product I would be in the fridge looking for something to eat. I worked hard yesterday, Tap, training and swimming I exercised at least all the calories I ate for the day, and I probably should have been hungry, but I was not hungry enough to want product. But I don't know what I would want if I wasn't eating product.
I know at the first of the blog I was craving steak, but I am not craving anything now. Cooking at Easter didn't kick up any cravings, even when people said the food was good. I don't think I am visceral about food, I am beginning to think it is all in my head, that my body if left without conscious thought would not be heavy.
If only I can carryover this to eating normal food. I have been saying forever that I need a regimented diet. I need to know what I can eat. No grazing. I, with TH, am going to do a meal delivery, and the last time I did it it went well for about 8 months, then I just couldn't handle the food anymore. This time we are going to do it differently, we are starting out 5 days and figuring two days on our own. Eventually we will hopefully be eating all on our own and not reverting back.
Yes two weeks, then four weeks then eek Europe.
I'm very sure Europe will be easy because we will be walking a lot. Plus, there won't be free access to food, we will likely just have two meals a day. Don't worry about Europe, we're going to have a blast!!
ReplyDeleteWe will walk a lot - or in my case, hobble a lot. Pasta in Italy with vegetables is pretty healthy & low cal. We'll do fine!
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