Year End

As the year comes to a close, I decided that I would finish my diet journey, wherever that may take me.  I am tired of constantly trying to lose weight.  I finished the program with 40 pounds to lose and now I have 50. 

But every time I over indulged it was the same thought.  I have to diet anyway, so I don't have to be so careful.  But like last time it adds up, and I just want off this roller coaster.

This is day three, and I am already trying to talk myself out of it.  I know the protocol, and I plan to do the program, with a couple of modifications.  I am taking two days off in January for food commitments I have already  made and I am taking the trip to Montana off, because it is just too difficult when a trip plans on feeding you. 

But already it is like I promise I will stay in my calories I just want an apple...popcorn...well that is it for now, I need to reread the first days of the last try.  Is this too hard?  Am I going to need to do it through Kaiser or can I do it myself.  We are only on day three.  I just don't know.