Day 16 - I had an idea

But now it is gone.  It is amazing how the same thoughts come during this process.  I don't have any new insight into my eating behavior, I know I like food, I know that a little is good a lot is better, I know I don't have hunger cues, none of this has changed since I first did the program in 2010.

I know I won't get to my "dream" weight, I know if I can keep it off for five years I can keep it off forever, I know as I get older my strength will diminish, so the weight won't be that big an impact on my swimming at that time. 

I have wishes, I wish I had never gained the weight.  I wish I had lost in sooner.  I wish I wish I wish.
I think about how different my life would have been if I had never gained the weight.  Maybe I would have started to swim in my 30 or 40's.  Maybe I would have been burned out with swimming by now.  Maybe I would never had cycled across the country, or maybe I would have done it on a yearly basis.  Lots of things I could have done if I was thinner, but I like were I am right now and right here, so maybe the weight put me in the good place.  Maybe.