The last few days has been hard, and I have been grumpy. I spent the last two days cleaning the garage and hardly made a dent. I am tired of the food, I worry that I am tired of the food. I am worried about my attitude. I am worried that all I think about is when I can eat again. I worry that this is all I think about.
Mindful eating. I want real food, to savor the flavor, I love eating, how is this going to keep me from reverting to form. For a minute there I thought well I will just go on the program every two years, so I don't really have to worry about the gains.
Argh. While cleaning the garage I came across the before and after pictures. So the first set I don't see too much of a difference, though I know that at the time they took the picture I was 80 pounds down. The second picture the start picture didn't look much different then my ending picture, but again, I was 51 pounds lighter. However the final picture I could tell the difference.
So people don't really notice the weight loss until that thresh-hold. But they certainly notice weight gain. Odd.
But back to my complaining. I want food. I want lots of it and I want it now. I am going to bed.
Mindful eating. I want real food, to savor the flavor, I love eating, how is this going to keep me from reverting to form. For a minute there I thought well I will just go on the program every two years, so I don't really have to worry about the gains.
Argh. While cleaning the garage I came across the before and after pictures. So the first set I don't see too much of a difference, though I know that at the time they took the picture I was 80 pounds down. The second picture the start picture didn't look much different then my ending picture, but again, I was 51 pounds lighter. However the final picture I could tell the difference.
So people don't really notice the weight loss until that thresh-hold. But they certainly notice weight gain. Odd.
But back to my complaining. I want food. I want lots of it and I want it now. I am going to bed.
Boy, going to bed at 7:14pm!!!!! The last few days have been very hard for Tanya and Ted too - cleaning the garage was hard work & she made a BIG dent. Thank you T3. You should have come to my office - we had food, lots of it BUT (and a big BUT), it was barbeque and it was LOUSY! Even Ted who loves barbeque was able to only nibble & not feel bad. Go Speed Racer.
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DeleteI'm thinking of you! Congratulations on putting a dent into the garage. Now if I could take some energy from you and tackle Donna's shed, I would be happy!😀
ReplyDeleteI am pretty good at it. I probably threw away some pretty valuable stuff though.
DeleteGood to know you have been grumpy too! I called it grumpy, my beloved called it itchy with a B! I am blaming the upcoming full moon....WE CAN DO THIS....I know we can.
ReplyDeleteWell, I know this is hard. I'm proud of you. Anyone who can do what you did in New Orleans (not eat) has amazing grit. You can do this.
ReplyDeleteI'm not sure what you're eating could really be considered "food" it's more like "fuel"
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