So the last week I have been having problems eating. This is not a surprise since I eat because I love the taste of food, and when I am not interested in the food, I am not interested in eating.
I got home yesterday after playing pickleball and going for a bike ride. I had four products to eat and it was 7 pm. I ate two of them. This is not a healthy thing to do, but I just couldn't get myself to eat the last two products.
When I got done with the ride and pickleball I was hungry and I had a shake and I was fine. I realized on the way home I brought two and only had one, so I was a bit disheartened thinking about having to have 4 more products.
This in itself is not new. I have always known that I eat mainly for pleasure. It is how I can diet easily when I put my mind to it. I just know I am not going to be enjoying anything for a while. But that is the problem as well. When I am done with the diet I will be eating food that I enjoy and food will once more becoming pleasurable. And the cycle will begin.
I am not going to not eat food that I enjoy, but how am I going to manage the gluttony of my personality? (Was that a double negative?) And realizing I don't need that much fuel to survive is a bit disheartening, weight loss is 20% exercise 80% diet. I don't know what maintenance is, I assume the same. Blah...
I got home yesterday after playing pickleball and going for a bike ride. I had four products to eat and it was 7 pm. I ate two of them. This is not a healthy thing to do, but I just couldn't get myself to eat the last two products.
When I got done with the ride and pickleball I was hungry and I had a shake and I was fine. I realized on the way home I brought two and only had one, so I was a bit disheartened thinking about having to have 4 more products.
This in itself is not new. I have always known that I eat mainly for pleasure. It is how I can diet easily when I put my mind to it. I just know I am not going to be enjoying anything for a while. But that is the problem as well. When I am done with the diet I will be eating food that I enjoy and food will once more becoming pleasurable. And the cycle will begin.
I am not going to not eat food that I enjoy, but how am I going to manage the gluttony of my personality? (Was that a double negative?) And realizing I don't need that much fuel to survive is a bit disheartening, weight loss is 20% exercise 80% diet. I don't know what maintenance is, I assume the same. Blah...
If the food is gross I suppose not eating would be more pleasurable than eating and being disgusted. The less I eat, the less I find the foods I have to eat pleasurable too.
ReplyDeleteThe new food (diettogo)that Tanya got for me is generally good, albeit expensive, and that will likely help upon our return. A couple of cookbooks (350 cal meals) have super & easy to fix meals, so I'm optimistic.
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