I am ordering Chef'd and making the meals without oil. With good pans the food doesn't stick too bad, and I don't miss the oil (at least not yet). But the guilt, it is horrible.
And even though I am staying well within the calories following the plan, I am prepared to gain weight. I am afraid to weigh myself. And If I don't gain weight the internal conversation is am I okay at this weight? I don't think I can lose anymore weight unless I am eating 960 calories. So if I can maintain the weight at 1200, am I okay with what I weigh now?
It isn't my plan. I really want to lose the final 45 pounds. It will make a huge difference. If I lose 16 more pounds I will no longer be classified as obese, just overweight. I would like that. Oh well, I suppose I should weigh myself, but I am afraid, so afraid. Like "don't go in the basement" afraid.
Shucks
And even though I am staying well within the calories following the plan, I am prepared to gain weight. I am afraid to weigh myself. And If I don't gain weight the internal conversation is am I okay at this weight? I don't think I can lose anymore weight unless I am eating 960 calories. So if I can maintain the weight at 1200, am I okay with what I weigh now?
It isn't my plan. I really want to lose the final 45 pounds. It will make a huge difference. If I lose 16 more pounds I will no longer be classified as obese, just overweight. I would like that. Oh well, I suppose I should weigh myself, but I am afraid, so afraid. Like "don't go in the basement" afraid.
Shucks
Don't go in the basement afraid is REAL fear - fortunately you're too smart to go in the basement. Yours truly not so smart but at least would send a dog down first - however they're too smart to go. Looking forward to watching you use the two new high end non-stick skillets (we already had good ones, but these are supposed to be better than All-Clad. Chef-D is good!
ReplyDeleteDon't fear. Just live for a while. Enjoy your trip. You've got the 1200. Stay on that till you get back then decide
ReplyDeleteT3 is doing a great job of cooking & I'm loving it!
ReplyDeleteI say, weigh yourself. Every day. And don't talk yourself out of your goal.
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